The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
I feel Ill. I feel like I’ve sunk a battleship or burned a bridge but not quite sure how it happened. I’m likely being dramatic, when I wake up tommorow I can take the steps to mend the problem. But at the moment my heart feels broken. I’ve worked hard, trained hard, suffered & bled tears & I feel like I’ve been abandoned. I feel as if I’ve done something terribly wrong. I want to win damnit! This hurts. Ouch.
Dolce & Gabanna
My eyes are heavy . The drugs are quick. I’m feeling lucky . I’m feeling fat and skinny & healthy & happy. I love my life. I love my life more than ever right now. Coming home to Chicago & this time I felt that this is not where I want to call home. Sweet home Chicago it will always be. But I love LA. And even NYC so much more. Chicago is too heavy, too much a burden to bear. And yet all my favorite people in the world grew up here. But I’ll always have Chicago and my past here to come to when I need a refreshing perspective on the world.
In a land far far away everything is perfect. Perfect skin, perfect teeth, perfect hair. Golden tan, warm days & cool nights. Perfect lover, perfect friend, perfect sex. Icecream sundaes make you thinner & pizza makes you glow. Silence is golden, music whispers like the waves of the ocean. A smile. A ray of light in your eye. A warm blanket wrapped around the two of you under a full moon sky. A shooting star. Wishes whispered. Dreams murmured. Nothing forgotten & nothing remembered. Stolen kisses. Tousled hair. Laughter.
I want u so bad. I want uuiuuuuuiiiuiu. I want u so bad it’s driving me mad it’s driving me mad.
Let go & let it be. All is manifesting for me in satisfying & harmonious ways for the highest good of all concerned.
Sleep.yoga.water.bananas.love that’s all I need in life. Everything else is just extra. I’ve been in Los Angeles for 1month and I’ve accomplished my goals and then some. I feel as if I’m beginning to make some good friends, which is not my strongpoint, and find my little family here. I’m going back to Chicago for work & I’m so happy I get to see my actual family for a few days followed by a romantic New York weekend with my lover. And then I’m going back back to Cali Cali to hustle.
I feel so very lucky to have the love & support not just from my family & friends but from the whole universe.